38 Today
I have been around on this earth now for 38 years. Being human is quite an experience, I must say. Unpredictable, mostly full of resistance and problems to solve, but I think that is part of the fun. If life as a human was too easy it would be boring.
I typically use this day as one of reflection, looking at the past year, forward to the next, a check-in of sorts. I didn’t feel that pull today, maybe because I have that review as part of a monthly routine I’ve recently implemented. Each morning I am keenly aware of where I’ve been, where I’m heading, what my current plans are and what I am doing to make sure they have a chance at happening. I think this mindset, this review process combined with a daily nod towards small steps intended to help the larger goal, has been a major win so far for me this year and is one I am doing my best to bake into the core of my brain.
I also feel like after dating for 1 year, being engaged for 2 years, married for 15 years, and now divorced for 1 year, we are finally beginning to communicate. Took 19 years, but I guess better late than never at this point.
I’ve been a dad now for 10 years. Still feel mostly like a failure in this area of life. I try to do my best, but always feel like I’ve fallen short in some way. Improvement to be made, in reality or maybe just in my mind but likely a combination of the two.
So, here’s to another year in the history books and hopefully a
full year ahead to continue improving as I strive to be the best human
version of myself as possible. Hopefully 62 more years to get it right.
Making my favorite meal tonight to celebrate with Lindsay and Mozzie (spaghetti, garlic bread, and wine), then will have cake and ice cream.
Have a great day,
~ Aaron
Grateful log for Mon, 11 Mar 2024
- 38 today
- United front (re parenting)
- Good progress on the workbench over the weekend