Disrupting things

I have written about this before and so sort of have the feeling that I am “beating a dead horse” (weird phrase, that one, has anyone actually done this?). But, today is the day that I disrupt things. That the stillness or absolute lack thereof in my apartment will be disturbed. Things will start to shift from their temporary homes into cardboard boxes to eventually be moved into a new place, hopefully a place that will feel a bit more like a home. This apartment was never that for me, it was never intended to last very long and I certainly do not have any attachment to this space whatsoever. A lot of personal growth has happened here, but now it just feels like I am living with my old skins laying around, cluttering the unavailable space.

And so I must move on. I must move out.

This will initially be a shock to all systems, as any move is, but will open things up for a more positive life moving forward. I will have space to have a personal life which is not disrupted by my leather/business, and my leather/business will have the space it needs to do what it needs to do. I will have outdoor space to utilize and on the inside will have natural light streaming in from multiple directions (imagine!).

There is so much to look forward to but there is so much yet to be done. 51 days until I officially move out, the business end of things likely moving out sooner than that. 50 more sleeps (in kid terms).

And looking at life with a wider perspective this next move will not be my last. This is yet another stepping stone towards dreams I have long held, dreams I thought forgotten and lost forever. It seems that our younger selves, naive as they are, may have some sense about what the future may hold. How we get there, unknown, but the heading has been set.

Have a great Thursday! 
~ Aaron

Grateful log for Thu, 28 Mar 2024

1. Today is the day I inform the property manager of my building that I will not be renewing my apartment lease.
2. new vacuum.
3. late night work sessions.

A lot of personal growth has happened here, but now it just feels like I am living with my old skins laying around, cluttering the unavailable space.