Grateful log for Wed, 21 Feb 2024

1. The pull to write again.
2. Pure motives (related to above but also everything else in life).
3. One hour of thinking and writing those thoughts down.

The Pull to Write Again
Writing has been something in my life for as long as I can remember. Jotting notes, thoughts, ideas, hopes, dreams, goals, things to do. Whatever is in my head must get out and so I am constantly writing. Lately, for the past few years actually, that has been the extent of my writing, short bursts of thought captured on a page in a notebook. A deeper type of writing, a type that I know must be done for my own sanity, has not been possible for a few years. My life was turned upside down in 2021 and since then I have found it more difficult than usual to put pen to paper regarding exactly what happened. The personal essay has always been my style, my preferred way to write, and now, three years after my life changed forever, I think I may be at a healthy point to begin writing about it.

Pure Motives
Absolutely related to the above thoughts on writing, but also to life in general. A separate line of thought here is a letter I want to send to someone I care about. I do have feelings for her, to be a partial open book, but that is not the intent of my letter. Gratitude is what I want to convey, and keeping my letter focused on that is critical to me so that my message is not muddled.

One Hour of Thinking and Writing Those Thoughts Down
This morning, after my morning walk and some yoga to keep the pain away, I sat down to do my usual page of writing. I use this time to clear the cobwebs, partially plan the day ahead, get ready to start in general. This morning I could tell that there was more to be worked out, and so I sat in the relative silence of my apartment for a solid hour just thinking and writing. Staring off into nothing, formulating thoughts and ideas, and then scribbling those thoughts and connections into my notebook. Untangling webs, making lines straight. 

Have a great day!
~ Aaron